My big step...

So today was a good day. I have been under the weather for about two weeks now and I am finally feeling like myself today.

My husband is on his on set so I went to Sunday school by myself. Well I can't say totally by myself because my brother and his fiancé were there so I sat with them. Well after Sunday school we normally make a trip down the street to go to Life Church for their service (we do a little church hopping on sundays). Well normally if my husband can't go with me I would watch church online but since my laptop is officially not waking up from its nap I couldn't watch it online. So today I made a bold decision.. I was going to go to church by myself. Now for most people that isn't a big deal, but for me it's a huge deal. I was pretty shy when I was little and it comes out sometimes, so to go and sit somewhere by myself is a big deal in my book.

So I walked in (early even) and sat down by myself... alone. It was kinda weird for me because normally I would totally freak out about sitting by myself but I felt calm and secure. When it came time to start singing praise and worship I stood up by myself with no one around me and worshiped. It was the coolest feeling that I've felt in a while. I was sitting by myself but I knew I wasn't alone. I knew God was with me sitting right next to me.

As I was singing I could really just focus on what I was singing about. I didn't have to worry about how I sounded, who was listening to me, or who was watching me. I felt so calm and comforted. I knew that's what I needed and where I needed to be. I have been asking God to inspire me to be bold and to know him more and I think this little step of sitting by myself is my little nudge that I needed to be bold. I loved my little kick in the pants this morning.

Now that I have made the big leap I know that I can do it again... I can sit by myself.

On a side note if you haven't been to Life Church I would encourage you to check it out whether it be online or one of their many locations. To be honest when I tried it the first time I wasn't into it. I didn't like the broadcast of the service. When I gave it another try I fell in love with the sermons and the series. Craig Groeschel is the senior pastor and he has a way of speaking right to your heart. He presents the message in a way that you can really apply it to your everyday life. It is pretty great.. Go ahead.. check it out ;).

The end..
Allison